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Testimony translates of Italian by Dennis DUMAS. The original is here :
http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Delphi/6919/ita_index.htm
Object: testimony
Date: Tuesday, August 27, 2002 00:22:27 +0200,
Hello Father
I am a boy of 23 years, and I write you to propose to you as well as to all visitors of your site what was my experience to the contact of the Néocatéchumèneses.
I don't make and I was never part of the Path NC, but I had the opportunity, especially this last time, to be able to live in narrow contact with a lot of "sons of Israel", so that I could now enumerate a discreet number of knowledge and regards inside this Movement.
This slow approach began a few years ago, when the Priest hired a catechist of a NC community, with the precise indication not to tempt a no way to return public the CNC inside the parish.
The group confided to catechist NC was mine (at the time I was hardly major), and I continued to follow his/her/its catéchèses daily since then.
I must give account that in these years he/it was a valid reference and I believe that in my spiritual growth his/her/its person had a contribution determining. Besides, the catechist also became a good friend. Unfortunately, with the common sense in more, he/it remains the regret and the conscience not to have had, and now not to have yet, the necessary theological knowledge to give me account if everything that has been catechized me during these years is in conformity with the teaching of the church, but I am happy, at least, to have become aware of the situation and the risk, if one can call it thus, that we could run one way or the other.
During these years, inevitably, it happened to me to enter in contact with other members of the Community NC to which he/it belongs, especially of the boys, evidently, and lately several regards are born that I hope will continue in the time.
It says, the thing fundamental of my testimony: what I think, today, of the Path. For the meantime I have a lot of confusion in head to this topic: I knew since the beginning that my attempt to instruct" me" to this subject of a reality that, in spite of some puzzlements, fascinated me one way or the other, could have carried me to review some of the ideas that me I was made of the CNC, but the impact was beyond my worse expectations. Of his/her/its analysis deepened of the "phenomenon" one stays terrorized. Of the less for me, after the first readings of the texts of this site I remained little a shocked to the thought to have run the risk "to be trapped" in the invisible net that Kiko would seem I to have stretched. And the thing that saddens me the more, for my NC friends, is that while reading I realized how much the experience that I didn't live not only denies the critiques and the accusations that bring up several sides opposite Kiko, as I hoped briskly, but nourishes it on the contrary. As I read I found a lot of answers to several small doubts that had risen to this topic and that, incapable to find an explanation, I had put side.
To give some examples: between the NC (of the less between those that I know), float an intolerance, réfrénée with pain, towards the people who don't approve the CNC in a manifest way. I always justified it while thinking that she/it could be "human", so long as she/it was contained, the most often visibly suppressed and in as much as she was only directed backs laymen. Unfortunately I was several control times of demonstrations of certain non laudatory with regard to the change (Catholic Action in particular), of priests and even of a Cardinal. Evidently the major part of this intolerance was not expressed in an explicit accusation: all was veiled very and implicit, but the impression that I had is that one tempted to discredit the determined characters, who were not absolutely to enumerate among the narrow regards of Kiko concerning this case.
Other troubling aspect: he/it has been given me to know many catechists, and in some I recognized the pictures "of inquisitors" or "psychological terrorists" perfectly several times proposed by different testimonies. I am stayed more of once perplexed of the tones with which they addressed to the young of the path. What is not not anything is the recall scour to the obedience, to the catechist. "ONE OBEYS BY LOVE!! thunders Kiko during one his/her/its catéchèses of mass. Whom does one obey? And by love towards whom? It one ever clarifies it.
It is really Kiko the character who has me least convinced in all this adventure. I had until now the opportunity to participate in two the meetings that usually is organized in opportunities of type the World Days of Youth and the impression that I had is that the Carmen was anyway the same to the two meetings: they are two good showman: they know how to capture the attention, they know how to amuse, they know how to speak to "their" young.
With regard to the recent experience of the pilgrimage in Canada, for the JMJ of Toronto, I have been disgusted as usual by some attitudes of some speeches that "left", without deepenings and too precise references,: he/it has been underlined several times how much the pilgrimage, of a length of 15 days, stock all in growth: every day that one came closer of the last meeting was more and more intense, more important, until we arrived to the very waited "big event", the last day... In it would not have anything strange and of incorrect, if one didn't consider the small detail that the meeting with the Pope has not been marked by the last day of the pilgrimage in the NC program, but to the next to last. The last day was destined to "the call to the vocation" of Kiko... And another aspect in actual fact little preoccupying for the NC, maybe the worse: when they speak of Kiko, and of what he/it makes, he/it seems nearly that they don't speak of a normal man, as if he/it belonged to a special category of men: "those that are capable to discern"... These words came out of the mouth of a brother of the Path, I am not inventing it to me: one managed to sustain that Francisco Arguello is one of the prophets of the new millennium... I don't know if and how he/it is allowed to be able to sustain a thesis of the kind, but, prophet or non prophet, as far as I know, he/it will always be submitted to the authority of the Holy Father, coming down from Pierre, and I don't see how one can think to approach with as much importance the voice of Kiko, that is a pure laic, to the one of Jean Paul II. And it is what the NC makes, even though they don't admit it explicitly: I am ready to bet any amount that they would never disobey, for no reason, to an order of Kiko. If the order was the Holy Father I would review a bearish number surely, of the less because I don't exclude, seen the precedents, that it can enter in conflict with the one of Kiko...
Something else that I feel to be able to confirm is that one has the tendency to destroy a person psychologically, while mortifying it and while humiliating it. And I would signal another important moment, in which perpetuates itself this destruction: the supposedly "experiences." I don't know how this type of practice is spilled: I had knowledge of it to Canada. Briefly I describe it: she/it took place by bus, during the displacements of city in city and the boys, by drawing, took the speech to the microphone, and while leaving from the experience of the pilgrimage that we were living, arrived, often, to tell episodes of their private life, difficulties, sinned even serious in which they had risked etc. etc. Every boy evidently acted in a complete liberty: no one has been obliged to make whatever it is counter his/her/its will. But if it was about volontariat, what need there was to draw by lot and to call the boys? And why, if someone seemed not to say all that he/it would have had to, did the person responsible of the tour insist him, while telling the accused who if he continued to hide it would have been useless? Over it all a fact was indicative; on a quarantine of boys that I listened to, I didn't even hear a "happy voice." I explain to myself: all experiences were about tribulations, the problems, the sins, frustrations and similar things. Is he/it possible that the pilgrimage doesn't inspire anything else to their c.urs? In these moments I felt extremely well, in peace with myself and with God, I never had as intensely prayed like in these days and I felt euphoric, happy. If I had been called to speak I would probably have gone to testify my happiness, of everything that I was expensive in this period determined of my life, there. I even managed to think, in these moments, that there was something maybe incorrect in me, seen the radical divergence between my thoughts and those of the rest of the community.
I add that this type of practice has been inserted inside the early laudes or vespers, and to this subject I would like to ask them if these integrations are permitted or no, because I had never been control of it. Also another problem, always concerning the "experiences", that I would like to propose to them: he/it arrived that, after a particularly meaningful testimony (have been exposed some sins rather serious), one of the two persons responsible of the bus, a catechist took the floor and he summoned, to us all that listened, to be a tomb,: anything of that that had not been said had to come out of the mouth of no one for no reason; the priest who came with us (NC him also) added that it would have a serious sin, and if someone spoke he/it should confess. I wonder: is he/it possible that a voluntary public declaration, even on strictly personal topics is able to expose me, involuntary listener, to the sin? Is this type of tie permitted or is this another of the numerous inventions of the NC?
True also that the young of the path are more that encouraged to get engaged between them. Rare are the cases in which an element of the couple comes of outside of the path. I attended an attempt personally (and I hope that he/it retracted), of a catechist to persuade a girl of sixteen years to let his/her/its boy, guilty not to be part of the path, while using the usual obedience.
I could continue a long time again, but I prefer to stop not to become boring.
I conclude while wishing him good luck: that his/her/its engagement and his/her/its perseverance contribute the most possible to the discovery of the truth.
A salute
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